So I went to see The Boxtrolls today having been very excited about all of the publicity, the general theme of the film, and all of the posters I saw of what appeared to be same gender families.
I left the cinema in tears because of it. It’s very…
This is… Upsetting. I’m upset. When this was explained to me without reading the whole thing, I thought ‘Oh gosh nah this doesn’t sound too bad I’m sure I can manage it’ and then I read it and I am so fucking distressed.
I was really looking forward to this movie. Like, really looking forward to it. I might still see it, when I can get it from Netflix, but this makes me so fucking sad I want to fucking cry. Like. No. I want to see one fucking movie that doesn’t make me feel like a fucking freak for shits and giggles. Do you understand how hard that is? I literally am constantly afraid that something I watch will make a trans joke. I am constantly afraid that someone will say a slur just because it’s so damn funny.
Guess what? I was watching the Shrek musical a long while back with my primary, and we were generally giggling at how shitty it was. Then, halfway through I think the second song, the Wolf says the words ‘hot t****y mess’. All the giggling stopped. That, too, is based on a children’s film.
What the fuck is wrong with the world? I want to fucking die the more I see this shit because goddammit it’s really clear that I’m not fucking welcome in the world of these cisgendered fucks.
I’m sorry for all of this, I’m aware it’s a big long rant and not quite related to the original post, but I’m so fucking tired of it and I’m just… I’m exhausted. Being in this fucking culture constantly guarding myself for the next time something or someone I like is going to remind me how much of a fucking abomination I am.
I hate the society that makes me feel this way. I hate everyone who defends it.Do you want to know why? It’s because you make me hate myself.
Thank you and sorry to anyone who bothered to read this mess of a rant. I’m just so angry and so sad and so hurt and I am crying and I want this fucking bullshit to never come back again.